Blogiversary

It has been 1 year since I began this blog. It's a pretty bittersweet milestone.

I'll begin with the good things:

1) I'm 13.8 pounds lighter than I was on this date last year.

2) I'm six weeks into the blog this time around and still going strong.  It was about this point last time that I ended up sliding back into my old ways.  Fortunately, the Big Carrot--a Broadway-filled weekend in NYC--is making this a lot easier to stick to long-term.

3) WOP culture is really, really growing on me. I actually love my long, weekend workouts. I'm not as big a fan of working out in the evenings after work.....I tend to do it more begrudgingly than anything else...but I do it because it is clearly working and it allows me to eat more. Win-win.

So those are the good things. But as happy as I am to report the good, I'm equally upset with myself over the bad.

For starters, there's the obvious fact that I never reached my goal to get to 130 before giving up and quickly gaining almost every pound back.  This is dually upsetting because it not only means that I failed in the past, but also, to quote a friend, "it scares the crap out of me" because it makes me so afraid of making the same mistakes in the future. 

I do not want to write shame-post number three. I don't want a two-year blogiversary where I celebrate losing the same 13 pounds again and again. I don't want to be the girl who yo-yo diets. I don't want that for myself. 

What happens after I reach my goal--IF I reach it--and the blog is over? 

What? 

I honestly don't know. 

I have been very self-aware of my past mistakes this time around and I am hoping to learn from them. I hope that my new focus on exercise and being less strict with myself about each and every little calorie will make the difference, but I would be a huge liar if I didn't say that I worry about the future of my waistline every single day. 

For now, I will try not to borrow trouble and just focus on the task at hand: get through the day without getting fatter. Then I'll do the same tomorrow. And the day after that. And, hopefully, I'll have the will to do it long enough that it just becomes second nature. 

That's what I want for myself. 

Happy Blogiversary.

Breakthrough

Hello friends!

Today, I am blogging from my home away from home: Lake Charles, Louisiana.

Beautiful town! Full of boudin balls, cracklins, and greasy looking people!

I come here pretty frequently for work--at least once a month and sometimes more.  The town has a pretty sweet hotel/casino/golf course thing going on, but otherwise, I am not sure why anyone would voluntarily vacation here.

All trash talking aside though, during one of my past work-travels to Lake Chuck, I discovered what may be my favorite food of all time: truffle mac n' cheese.  Specifically, the truffle mac n' cheese at Restaurant Ember at the L'auberge Du Lac Hotel and Casino Resort. 

This shit is like crack for fat girls.

This kid is my spirit animal.

Pre-diet blog, anytime I would come here for work, I would get myself, among other treats, a truffle mac n' cheese for dinner and then a second one to take to-go back to NOLA.

I know.

I'm awful.

So yesterday when I realized that my work would be taking me back to L'auberge for the first time since starting the blog, I entered into this strange depression/guilt/rationalization spiral that continued for the better part of the three hour drive to get here.

At first I was like, "Lake Charles!  My favorite mac n' cheese!"

And then I realized, "Oh wait a sec......I am back on a diet.  Motherf*cker!"

 

And then I was like, "Oh my god......I can't believe this part of my life is over. NO truffle mac?  Like....ever?!?"

But then I had an epiphany!   What if, instead of considering the mac n' cheese "cheating,"  I eat the mac n' cheese for dinner, cut back on lunch, exercise a little more this weekend, enjoy myself every once in a while, and just don't make a habit out of always eating the bad stuff?



I think they call this a mother*cking lifestyle change, playas!  

So by my calculations, I should be allowed to have another treat in about 2.5 weeks' time which coincides perfectly with a certain blogger's birthday. =)

Until next time!

Week 6 Progress Report

WEIGHT: 148.8

WEEKLY NET CHANGE: -2.4 lbs

TOTAL WEIGHT LOSS SO FAR: 11.8 pounds

Yippie! Hooray! Boom!

Cheater.

Well. I did it.

I cheated. 

For the first time in 5 weeks, I ditched my little Fitness Pal and just consumed. It was awful. I feel so incredibly guilty. 

And what was this food that was so tempting?  What tasty morsel could have been so appealing that it overcame my iron will?  Filet mignion? Fettuccini Alfredo? Buffalo chicken? 

No. No. And no.

Fucking Pizza Rolls.  PIZZA ROLLS.  

They are disgusting!!! What was I thinking!?  If I am gonna go off the wagon it should AT LEAST be for something that contains more natural ingredients than man-made ones. 

Now I am doubly upset: upset that I caved to temptation and upset that I didn't at least use the opportunity to eat something I actually love.

Grr.

The good news is that I DID walk over 8 miles yesterday and my weight remains stable at 149.4 for now.

I will now go walk 10 miles and jump right back on the wagon. 

Pizza rolls. 

Really. 

New WOPstyle

Okay, let me begin by apologizing for the length of time between posts.  I haven't given up!  Quite the contrary, actually.   I have been really, really busy getting into this new "workout people" lifestyle. WOPstyle.

First, some stats:

Um, moment to celebrate this, please.

See!  I told you that I wasn't cheating.  I swear, I was so good this week.  Even though it was incredibly frustrating having to report a -0.4 pound change for the week, I take back all of the F bombs I dropped in the Weekly Progress Report.





I attribute this awesome weigh-in to my new WOPstyle.  Seriously, the only person who has been hustlin' more than me this week is Miley Cyrus's PR person.



I've been killing it with the walking/jogging (okay, pretty much only walking....but it's getting the job done).  My goal is to get to 30 miles per week and to do at least some walking every day.

Obviously, I am very concerned with trying to make this a lifelong change and not just some silly thing that I do for this blog.  I truly believe that the key to making this a WOPstyle is enjoying it.

Imagine that.....enjoying life and getting thinner while doing it.

This makes a total of 11.2 pounds lost since starting the blog.  This also technically means that I owe myself a treat.  But honestly, I am just so happy to see the progress that I don't really feel the need to get myself a treat.  Maybe I'll get myself some more WOP gear.  I'm gonna need it. =)

I have a lot more to say about how I hope to make this WOPstyle a permanent change, but I have to go now.

I'm running another 5k this morning.

Not kidding.

Week 5 Progress Report

WEIGHT: 151.2
WEEKLY NET CHANGE: -0.4 lbs.

What.

The.

Fuck!??????



Pardon my French.  But WHATTHEFUCK!?!??!?!??

I have been so good......like, SO good.

I've worked out every single day for at least an hour (some days 2)!  Alright, I skipped one time on Thursday, but otherwise I've worked out every day.

And I haven't exceeded 1300 calories....except once when I went to, like, 1450.

Still, those two teeny tiny indiscretions aside, this week should have been golden.

It's another Damaran. 

I'm gonna go cry now.

MILESTONE!

Today, a coworker noticed that I've lost weight.

That is all.